grace, even for the good girls

so, true confession:: sometimes i think to myself, "you live a pretty good life, you are a 'good girl,' so do you really need all that grace?"  no lie, pride is an ugly sin, and i have a lot of it.  God knows exactly what he is doing ALL THE TIME, so just try that one on Him and see what he does. 

about three weeks ago, i had one of those moments where God brought me to my knees and i was in awe of just how wonderful this thing called grace really is.  you see, i am a rule follower, i hate breaking rules... always have, probably always will.  when i do break the rules or do something wrong, my guilt alone is enough to destroy me.  i mean, we are talking, i hate driving the wrong way in the parking lot, ha!  well, a few weeks ago, God totally allowed something to happen in my life, that completely brought me to my knees.  i like to think that i am strong, and that i am not weak, ha.  the truth is temptation is a bad thing and we all fall short of the glory of God and the wages of sin is death.  after this event/day in my life, the following day, i was completely eaten up with guilt.  i literally wanted to crawl in a whole and really felt as though i couldn't talk to anyone.  i kept beating myself up and kept thinking that no wonder i am still single.  God is never going to bless me with a husband if i keep making stupid decisions.  you see, this mentality is so wrong.  our God, my God, doesn't think this way.  he sent his ONLY son, to die on a cross, for each and everyone of MY sins.  how am I, kelsey morgan, worthy of this i thought that day.  i kept thinking all day, how ashamed i was, but then it hit me, because HE LOVES ME.  i can never outsin HIM.  wow, if you really think about HIS love and how much he covers us in grace, it will bring you to your knees and it is powerful.  i was in my living room, on the floor, just crying out to him.  i have never felt HIS love and his grace so much in my whole life. 

all i can say is that i am a work in progress, this whole grace thing isn't easy, but i am praying daily for Him to remind me of how wonderful HE is and how great GRACE is. 

Weight Watchers Week 6

So, again I say that I have the exercising thing down and I am doing okay with the keeping track of my points, but eating out is difficult and I do that a lot.  I lost a whopping 0.6 pounds this week, but you know a loss is loss, so I am going with it:)

So far I have lost 9.6 pounds, so that means I have lost 5.8% of my body weight so far.  I just did a killer spin class and the guy beside us said that he burned 820 calories, if only I burned that many, but at least I probably burned 500-600, it was INTENSE.  on to watch the bachelor with the girls to end this monday and hoping for a big weight loss next week, still committed:)

Weight Watchers:: Week 5

I'm saying today's weigh in was by the grace of God, truly, that I lost and did not gain.  I lost a pound, not sure how at all... I decided with my friends coming into town this weekend, that I wasn't counting points.  I also got pretty sick last Wednesday and had to go to urgent care and get a few shots, so that day once I started feeling better, I treated myself to Bojangles:)  I am 100% and committed again, and I had a salad last night for dinner, so we are good now.  Only have seven more weeks of my initial committment and swimsuit time is right around the corner.  My stomach is definitely not where I want it, but I am a continual work in progress in many areas of my life, so I will still work at it and not give up:)  Quick fit was brutal this morning and tonight I will do pilates before the girls and I get together for the Bachelor.

Happy Monday!!!

Weight Watchers:: Week 4

This post is late, because I didn't want to post, but the truth is I didn't lose or gain, stayed the same.  I know there will be weeks like this, as it is hard to lose weight when you are already in your range of weight for your height.  I feel like one of those people on the biggest loser when they didn't lose and people just stare and can't believe, haha.  Truth is though, I had mexican on Valentine's day with some friends and it was freaking awesome:)  I am okay with these results and I still worked out just as hard. 

This week may not be good either, as I have my best friends from college coming to town and we are going to enjoy a girl's weekend.  In addition, I am dating and guys want to treat me to nice meals, so goodness, if I say, no to alcohol and just eat like a rabbit, they think I am weird or have an eating disorder, haha.  I will figure it out and balance, my goal is to lose 25 pounds total, so I CAN do this.

Weight Watchers:: Week 3

Full disclosure, we are not always going to be perfect, haha.  This week I had lasik eye surgery, which for the record was awesome, but these dry eyes they talk about are for the birds... but I am trying to be "aggressive" as they say with the drops.  I am a rule follower, like whoa, so I am hoping that at my one week post check up that all of the concerns I am having will be "normal."  Yesterday I had blurry vision in my right eye that was terrible, and today I can barely keep my eyes open or enough drops in them they are so dry, yikes... but this too will pass, right:)

I went on a retreat with my church, that was amazing (it will get a post to itself) when I get five seconds of free time, but for now, I will say that I had Bojangles on my way home, and it was delicious.  I will say I still counted it and just didn't eat the biscuit, but those french fries tasted WONDERFUL:)  it is so great that you don't have to deprive yourself.  i wasn't allowed to work out for 72 hours, which I thought was nuts, but the rest was good.

So, for Week 3, I still lost, which was great, but only 1.2 pounds.  So, that brings my total weight loss to 5.2% from the start... I'll take it... I have lost a total of 8.6 pounds in three weeks:)  I think this is a healthy way to do it:)

Thanks for all the encouragement:)

Weight Watchers:: Week 2

Yall, this works:)  So, this week it got a little harder, but seeing that this program works is totally worth it!!!  I know that I am developing healthy habits that will stick with me.  The thing is I am watching portion control and learning that you can't just snack (unhealthy) all the time.  When you are bored, you can't just eat.  I need to learn to drink more water. 

So, I am also learning that I have to use my time wisely.  exercise when I can.  I love pilates and my goal is get rid of these love handles and this muffin top (sounds disgusting typing it or saying it, so this is my goal).  I am trying hard not to obssess. 

If someone has any suggestions on how to get me to like veggies more or to enjoy cooking that would be great, because no lie, I hate cooking.  I'd love for my future husband to love to cook, I don't mind cleaning... I am terrible at it.  I even tried to make healthy smoothies recently, but I failed at that, haha. 

So, results for this week... I lost 2.6 pounds... oh yes, that makes a total of 7.4 pounds in 2 weeks:)  Percentage of body weight lost... 4.5% so far:)

weight watchers week 1

i am so thankful that i decided to do this.  is it easy, NO.  i am one week in, and had my first weigh in this morning, and it went well.

so, before i post my results, let me talk about last week....

so, after registering and logging in i found out that i was allowed 26 points a day.  so, monday i wanted to eat like i normally would just to see how many points i would typically eat in a normal day.  i used to eat a bagel thin (110 calories), reduced fat cream cheese, coffee, with no sugar, but with natural creamer (it is delicious), and a strawberry shake.  this was literally like 10 or 11 points, i was shocked, haha.  for lunch i typically eat like a turkey/provolone/avocado panini with mustard and i will take the leftover avocado and make some homemade guacamole with whole grain scoops... this was like 15 points. then for dinner that night i had a you pick two from panera and holy moly the points from that nearly killed me, but i had worked out twice, so i was hungry... i will get to that in a minute.  my baked potato soup (which I only ate half of was 6 points (for the half)).  my thai chopped chicken salad (which i ate half of) was 6 points for the half as well.  the french baguette (how do you spell that) was 4 points.  so, this was 16 points, yikes.  at some point i had a snack of pimento cheese and crackers, but halfed it, which was three points.  i also had an apple and some strawberries, which were zero points... my total point value was 42 or 43... i couldn't believe it.

so, my workouts... you get activity points when you exericse.  i got 68 points for all my workouts.... i worked so hard, many days doing two workouts, but when i commit to something, i don't give 50%, i give 110%.  i will keep up with this as much as possible, because i want to be healthier:)

the best part is you don't have to deprive yourself.  it was restaurant week, so saturday night i saved a lot of my points (flex points and activity ones) and i was able to eat salmon, mashed potatoes and cheese cake.  i only ate half of all, but it was so nice to be able to have some delicious treats, and for the results....

week 1, i lost 4.8 pounds, woohoo!!! I lost 2.93% of my body weight in one week:)