this is a good one! the one thing that i wish i was good at would be playing sports or just athletic in general. so, i did gymnastics while growing up and i was actually pretty good at that, but i was always affected by peer pressure. around 7th grade (so 13 or so), i decided that i wanted to play basketball or softball, because all of my friends were doing it. i mean, i wanted to do what all the cool kids were doing. so, my mother said, that is fine, if you want to do something other than gymnastics, but you have to quit that...wait, what? so, i was dumb enough to stop doing gymnastics and pay money to sit on the bench. i was so terrible. i think the basketball coach just put me in because he knew that i had paid money and could probably get into some kind of trouble if i went the entire season with no playing time. nicole, my cousin, claims i went the wrong way on the court one time, but i am not sure of that. in softball, i was an outfielder and that was lame. needless to say, that was short lived, and i haven't really played any other sports.
another funny story relating to this was after college, my friends in raleigh (bayley, michele, and holly) all played on this kickball league and i remember when they were trying to get their team together one year. someone was like, well we need more girls, and i was like, well i try and play. i will never forget it, but bayley looked at me and said, "kelsey, we'd actually like to try and win." i know she was somewhat joking, but actually probably not. so, i was like the "soccer mom" or in this case, kickball mom and brought orange slices to all the players after each game.
i just wish i had some ability to play and that people wanted me on their team, but now that i am a little order, i am like, well i made it through those years and i am fine:)
maybe my kids will have this ability, hopefully they will get it from my future husband and not their mother or they are screwed, haha.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
humbling experience:: moving home temporarily
this is even a hard blog to write, but i am choosing to focus on blessings and positives (trying to do a lot of that lately) instead of harping on the negative rather than focusing on what others may say by looking at my situation. so here goes....
many people know that i bought my townhouse in charlotte at the ripe age of twenty five. you could probably look back and find those posts ( i don't know how to link those), but i was so excited. i mean, i thought buying a house was the next thing to do and nothing could stop me. i did all the research, found the perfect floor plan, searched for a D R Horton community (loved them from the townhouse that Holly and i rented in raleigh), and new that the smart thing would be to live near the airport (at the time i traveled 80% of the time for my job)... so i was good, loved it. my "sister in law" helped me finalize the paperwork and i closed on September 23, 2008. i was so excited. i wasn't going to let the fact that i wasn't married or whatever stop me from pursuing my dreams and moving on with my life, and having my very own home was so wonderful. i loved decorating, getting furniture, and painting (well having my dad and brother do that). my actual townhouse is perfect for me, and there isn't anything about it that i don't like (the building that is).
fast forward about two years, and the community started having a few break-ins and for anyone who knows me, you know this did not sit well with this girl. after all, this is my number 1 fear in life. the thought that someone could and wound break into my house at night scared me to death, it is like that paralyzing fear. i have an alarm system (would have never lived someone by myself without one), but then i resorted to placing furniture against my bedroom door at night for added security and that helped, but may nights i lie in bed and nothing calms me down, as i hear things or have heard of another recent break in and my nerves are so shot, i just cannot sleep.
when i went to haiti last october, apparently two single women in my community were targeted, one was raped and one was stabbed (while attempted robberies occurred), so this just about sent this girl over the edge, but somehow God gave me the strength to stay a little longer. i think a big reason i was able to stay was my amazing neighbor that God sent me. vince is always there for me when i need something. i have had to call him multiple times when someone has knocked on my door, rang my doorbell, etc... he always comes over checks things out, etc... i cannot thank him enough or praise God enough for putting him right next door to me. he also fixes things for me, which is just an added bonus... we joke and say that it is his "honey do list."
the break ins have continued, actually ten to be exact since last october. i live in constant fear. even with an alarm and vince, many nights i have no quality of life, because i cannot sleep. i pray and read verses, but the fear is all consuming. about two weeks ago vince told me he is moving. i won't bore you with all the details of why he is moving, but it is for a lot of different reasons, not so much because of the break ins and safety, but that did factor into it, but for me this was the push that i needed. there is no way that i will feel safe or okay with staying here knowing that i do not have him next door to call if i need someone. additionally, there were two more break ins about two weeks ago, and one of them was during the day. i work from home, and i am always here....
so, i have come to the conclusion that i am OUT. i cannot do this anymore. i am leaving this house that i was so excited about. i have contacted a property management group and they are going to rent it out. as for me and what i am going to do... i think the smart thing for me to do is to take a couple months and move back home with my parents because it is would not be financially smart to move quickly into a new place in charlotte (i wish i could)... i need to make sure my place rents and that i get a good reliable renter in my place first. i didn't think i would be almost 30 and moving back in with my parents, but as i said at the beginning, i am choosing to focus on the positive:
1) my parents have been more than welcoming and so understanding
2) my dad is amazing and is taking down my sister's room so that can be my office temporarily
3) they are even cleaning out the attic/bonus room so i won't have to get a storage unit
4) my friends in charlotte are being very welcoming and allowing me to stay when needed
5) my friends in lincolnton are excited and i am excited about quality time with them
my only negative comment, there is no starbucks in lincolnton, oh dear!
i know that God already knew this was going to happen, so i'll be praying for the following:
1) that whatever lesson he is trying to teach me that i will slow down and listen
2) that i will find a good renter or that the property management group will
3) that i will find the best place and area to live in october in charlotte
4) that i will still feel connected to my friends/community in charlotte over the next few months
many people know that i bought my townhouse in charlotte at the ripe age of twenty five. you could probably look back and find those posts ( i don't know how to link those), but i was so excited. i mean, i thought buying a house was the next thing to do and nothing could stop me. i did all the research, found the perfect floor plan, searched for a D R Horton community (loved them from the townhouse that Holly and i rented in raleigh), and new that the smart thing would be to live near the airport (at the time i traveled 80% of the time for my job)... so i was good, loved it. my "sister in law" helped me finalize the paperwork and i closed on September 23, 2008. i was so excited. i wasn't going to let the fact that i wasn't married or whatever stop me from pursuing my dreams and moving on with my life, and having my very own home was so wonderful. i loved decorating, getting furniture, and painting (well having my dad and brother do that). my actual townhouse is perfect for me, and there isn't anything about it that i don't like (the building that is).
fast forward about two years, and the community started having a few break-ins and for anyone who knows me, you know this did not sit well with this girl. after all, this is my number 1 fear in life. the thought that someone could and wound break into my house at night scared me to death, it is like that paralyzing fear. i have an alarm system (would have never lived someone by myself without one), but then i resorted to placing furniture against my bedroom door at night for added security and that helped, but may nights i lie in bed and nothing calms me down, as i hear things or have heard of another recent break in and my nerves are so shot, i just cannot sleep.
when i went to haiti last october, apparently two single women in my community were targeted, one was raped and one was stabbed (while attempted robberies occurred), so this just about sent this girl over the edge, but somehow God gave me the strength to stay a little longer. i think a big reason i was able to stay was my amazing neighbor that God sent me. vince is always there for me when i need something. i have had to call him multiple times when someone has knocked on my door, rang my doorbell, etc... he always comes over checks things out, etc... i cannot thank him enough or praise God enough for putting him right next door to me. he also fixes things for me, which is just an added bonus... we joke and say that it is his "honey do list."
the break ins have continued, actually ten to be exact since last october. i live in constant fear. even with an alarm and vince, many nights i have no quality of life, because i cannot sleep. i pray and read verses, but the fear is all consuming. about two weeks ago vince told me he is moving. i won't bore you with all the details of why he is moving, but it is for a lot of different reasons, not so much because of the break ins and safety, but that did factor into it, but for me this was the push that i needed. there is no way that i will feel safe or okay with staying here knowing that i do not have him next door to call if i need someone. additionally, there were two more break ins about two weeks ago, and one of them was during the day. i work from home, and i am always here....
so, i have come to the conclusion that i am OUT. i cannot do this anymore. i am leaving this house that i was so excited about. i have contacted a property management group and they are going to rent it out. as for me and what i am going to do... i think the smart thing for me to do is to take a couple months and move back home with my parents because it is would not be financially smart to move quickly into a new place in charlotte (i wish i could)... i need to make sure my place rents and that i get a good reliable renter in my place first. i didn't think i would be almost 30 and moving back in with my parents, but as i said at the beginning, i am choosing to focus on the positive:
1) my parents have been more than welcoming and so understanding
2) my dad is amazing and is taking down my sister's room so that can be my office temporarily
3) they are even cleaning out the attic/bonus room so i won't have to get a storage unit
4) my friends in charlotte are being very welcoming and allowing me to stay when needed
5) my friends in lincolnton are excited and i am excited about quality time with them
my only negative comment, there is no starbucks in lincolnton, oh dear!
i know that God already knew this was going to happen, so i'll be praying for the following:
1) that whatever lesson he is trying to teach me that i will slow down and listen
2) that i will find a good renter or that the property management group will
3) that i will find the best place and area to live in october in charlotte
4) that i will still feel connected to my friends/community in charlotte over the next few months
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
single girl revelation:: rejoice, reverse, and relax
so, i have been wanting to write this blog post for quite some time, but just couldn't find the time to sit down and do it, but i think today/tonight is the right time:) the truth, for anyone who knows me, i have always been single; clearly, i am 29 and not married, but more than that, i haven't really been in a serious relationship and don't really date that much. for any guys that are reading this, i'd like to say that i am extremely picky or a better word, i'll say selective, but i know that God's timing is perfect and this is one area of my life that i cannot control. it isn't like you can go to the store and pick out your "dream guy." contrary to what online dating profiles would make you think, it isn't that easy! goodness, in our society today, i think that is a huge part of the problem, there are so many online dating choices that guys and girls can be even more picky than they are already are, and the truth is, i think we all just want to find our best friend and companion to continue in life with.
the past three to six months, i know that God has been working on my heart big time in this area. the truth is, God knows my greatest hearts desires; goodness, he knows me better than i know myself. all of my friends know how much i want to be a wife and a mom, but if i am being honest here, i know that i have let this be a false god or idol in my life for way too long. i think i have thought more about being single or wanting a husband and focused less on the true blessings in my life and this all became abundantly clear on a wednesday night in april. kasey, casey, lindsey, and i went to see matt chandler in durham, and he said something along the lines of we choose the reaction to our circumstances... we choose how react to what life throws at us. i know this doesn't sound very profound, but something about what he said totally struck a cord with this girl. i know God wanted me to hear this message or even that point loud and clear. the truth is I (kelsey morgan) am the only person on this planet that can choose to react to my own singleness, and the truth is, i haven't been handling it very well. the last ten years, i have basically been having a pity party for myself and have been pretty bitter about it. this has to change i thought as i sat there. what a witness to anyone who does not love Jesus and is not a believer. they are seeing the way i am handling my season of waiting on a husband, and i am handling it all wrong. i want people to see me as a 29 year old who is so completely blessed and thankful for the life that she is given each day; after all, we aren't promised tomorrow, so each new day is truly a gift! i want to get up each day and live my life full of joy and share God's love with others. i want to know that i am still living out God's purpose for my life regardless of if i get married or not. the truth, being single isn't all that bad, i can still do great things. for example, God has given me a desire to love on children in Haiti and do medical missions work, so to Haiti i go for the second time in July. did i have to check with anyone, no... i put in my vacation request and off i go, and i am so excited!!! my friends and family are so incredibly supportive, and going gives me great purpose and there is nothing like it. i cannot wait to see jazmine again:) another example of how i am choosing to find joy is serving in the toddler room on sundays... everyone who knows me knows i LOVE kids... so i get to love and play with about 15-18 toddlers every sunday morning at church, and i wouldn't trade it for anything:) seriously, i love waking up on sunday mornings knowing i get this opportunity. i fully trust that God has a plan, and i can truly say that i have surrendered my will and desires to Him.
Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
now, don't get me wrong, i still have many days when i want nothing more to be married and to have children. being single can be lonely, but i would rather continue to be my selective/picky self and hold out for the right one that marry the wrong one or settle for the wrong one just to "be married." i listened to a sermon today from my old church in raleigh (hope), that my best friend holly sent me, and it was so good. mike said he found a quote that said "success isn't about marrying the one person that will make you happy, but escaping all the ones that will make you miserable." i thought that is so true. he also talked about how important it is to be spirtually compatible with your mate, and i cannot stress how important this is to me. with how easy it is to filter for your "dream guy" on match or eharmony (or many others), it is easy for people to say that they are a christian, but going to church doesn't mean you have a relationship with God. i am so thankful that God has given me wisdom and discernment, and i continually pray for this throughout the dating process! also, mike stressed that it is important to have similar plans and purpose, seriously could not agree more. i am so thankful for these simple reminders today, because no matter how many times we hear them, as a single girl it can never be enough.
at the end of the message, mike had three simple reminders:: rejoice, reverse, and relax! i loved these, and could seriously do a little more of all three. i need to rejoice as mentioned above at the life that i have been blessed with and be thankful for this season of singleness. there are so many things that i get to do that married people can't (not saying marriage is bad either). i should definitely take advantage of this season and go when called! the reverse part really got me.... mike said to reverse your thinking and i addressed this above a little as well. i need to reverse my thinking and not dwell on my singleness and what all i am missing out on or thinking that God is punishing me... i need to remember that this is all part of God's perfect plan for my life, and i am not going to meet my husband one second before God is ready for me to meet him. instead of dwelling on things i cannot control, i need to re-focus and remember this daily:) lastly, i just need to flat out relax:) i could elaborate, but i think it is pretty straightforward.
i pray that if you are single today, and you have read this that you have been encouraged. you have not been forgotten. you are deeply loved by a wonderful God, and his perfect plan will be revealed when the time is right. in the meantime, look at your singleness as a blessing, and try to take advantage of this season and do something that you've always wanted to do, go serve a little more, take that job that seems a little risky/adventurous, but most of all just know you are loved by your Heavenly Father!!!
the past three to six months, i know that God has been working on my heart big time in this area. the truth is, God knows my greatest hearts desires; goodness, he knows me better than i know myself. all of my friends know how much i want to be a wife and a mom, but if i am being honest here, i know that i have let this be a false god or idol in my life for way too long. i think i have thought more about being single or wanting a husband and focused less on the true blessings in my life and this all became abundantly clear on a wednesday night in april. kasey, casey, lindsey, and i went to see matt chandler in durham, and he said something along the lines of we choose the reaction to our circumstances... we choose how react to what life throws at us. i know this doesn't sound very profound, but something about what he said totally struck a cord with this girl. i know God wanted me to hear this message or even that point loud and clear. the truth is I (kelsey morgan) am the only person on this planet that can choose to react to my own singleness, and the truth is, i haven't been handling it very well. the last ten years, i have basically been having a pity party for myself and have been pretty bitter about it. this has to change i thought as i sat there. what a witness to anyone who does not love Jesus and is not a believer. they are seeing the way i am handling my season of waiting on a husband, and i am handling it all wrong. i want people to see me as a 29 year old who is so completely blessed and thankful for the life that she is given each day; after all, we aren't promised tomorrow, so each new day is truly a gift! i want to get up each day and live my life full of joy and share God's love with others. i want to know that i am still living out God's purpose for my life regardless of if i get married or not. the truth, being single isn't all that bad, i can still do great things. for example, God has given me a desire to love on children in Haiti and do medical missions work, so to Haiti i go for the second time in July. did i have to check with anyone, no... i put in my vacation request and off i go, and i am so excited!!! my friends and family are so incredibly supportive, and going gives me great purpose and there is nothing like it. i cannot wait to see jazmine again:) another example of how i am choosing to find joy is serving in the toddler room on sundays... everyone who knows me knows i LOVE kids... so i get to love and play with about 15-18 toddlers every sunday morning at church, and i wouldn't trade it for anything:) seriously, i love waking up on sunday mornings knowing i get this opportunity. i fully trust that God has a plan, and i can truly say that i have surrendered my will and desires to Him.
Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
now, don't get me wrong, i still have many days when i want nothing more to be married and to have children. being single can be lonely, but i would rather continue to be my selective/picky self and hold out for the right one that marry the wrong one or settle for the wrong one just to "be married." i listened to a sermon today from my old church in raleigh (hope), that my best friend holly sent me, and it was so good. mike said he found a quote that said "success isn't about marrying the one person that will make you happy, but escaping all the ones that will make you miserable." i thought that is so true. he also talked about how important it is to be spirtually compatible with your mate, and i cannot stress how important this is to me. with how easy it is to filter for your "dream guy" on match or eharmony (or many others), it is easy for people to say that they are a christian, but going to church doesn't mean you have a relationship with God. i am so thankful that God has given me wisdom and discernment, and i continually pray for this throughout the dating process! also, mike stressed that it is important to have similar plans and purpose, seriously could not agree more. i am so thankful for these simple reminders today, because no matter how many times we hear them, as a single girl it can never be enough.
at the end of the message, mike had three simple reminders:: rejoice, reverse, and relax! i loved these, and could seriously do a little more of all three. i need to rejoice as mentioned above at the life that i have been blessed with and be thankful for this season of singleness. there are so many things that i get to do that married people can't (not saying marriage is bad either). i should definitely take advantage of this season and go when called! the reverse part really got me.... mike said to reverse your thinking and i addressed this above a little as well. i need to reverse my thinking and not dwell on my singleness and what all i am missing out on or thinking that God is punishing me... i need to remember that this is all part of God's perfect plan for my life, and i am not going to meet my husband one second before God is ready for me to meet him. instead of dwelling on things i cannot control, i need to re-focus and remember this daily:) lastly, i just need to flat out relax:) i could elaborate, but i think it is pretty straightforward.
i pray that if you are single today, and you have read this that you have been encouraged. you have not been forgotten. you are deeply loved by a wonderful God, and his perfect plan will be revealed when the time is right. in the meantime, look at your singleness as a blessing, and try to take advantage of this season and do something that you've always wanted to do, go serve a little more, take that job that seems a little risky/adventurous, but most of all just know you are loved by your Heavenly Father!!!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
day 16: 5 greatest accomplishments
i can do this a little better than the animal topic, here we go....
1. being the first person in my family to graduate from college... this was huge for me. early on i decided or maybe i should say had a drive to succeed and new that i would stop at nothing until i did just what i put my mind too. i wanted to go to UNC and graduate from there, so that is just what i did.. the day i graduated from college was such a special day and all of my family came, i have never felt more loved and special:)
2. getting into Carolina. for this planner, i ONLY applied to UNC (early decision), so i really had no back up plan. i had looked into a few other places, but my heart was set on UNC. when i got the acceptance letter, seriously best day of senior year:)
3. may sound silly, but a major accomplishment in my life was the day i faced my fear of dogs... i wanted a nanny job for this family that was going to pay pretty well for a broke college student, so i went to meet their two little toy poodles (i was 19 and deathly afraid) and i had never done this for anyone or anything... 2002 was a big year, my parents finally got to get their own dog that they had always wanted:)
4. getting my recent promotion at work in Site Management. i have worked so hard the past six years at my company, so being recognized and getting this promotion was so great. God had a plan all along, and i am so thankful for this HUGE opportunity!
5. check back, still thinking on this one...
1. being the first person in my family to graduate from college... this was huge for me. early on i decided or maybe i should say had a drive to succeed and new that i would stop at nothing until i did just what i put my mind too. i wanted to go to UNC and graduate from there, so that is just what i did.. the day i graduated from college was such a special day and all of my family came, i have never felt more loved and special:)
2. getting into Carolina. for this planner, i ONLY applied to UNC (early decision), so i really had no back up plan. i had looked into a few other places, but my heart was set on UNC. when i got the acceptance letter, seriously best day of senior year:)
3. may sound silly, but a major accomplishment in my life was the day i faced my fear of dogs... i wanted a nanny job for this family that was going to pay pretty well for a broke college student, so i went to meet their two little toy poodles (i was 19 and deathly afraid) and i had never done this for anyone or anything... 2002 was a big year, my parents finally got to get their own dog that they had always wanted:)
4. getting my recent promotion at work in Site Management. i have worked so hard the past six years at my company, so being recognized and getting this promotion was so great. God had a plan all along, and i am so thankful for this HUGE opportunity!
5. check back, still thinking on this one...
day 15: if you were an animal, what would you be and why?
seriously, i almost wanted to skip this one... most people who know me, know that animals are not my thing, haha. i guess if i had to choose one, i'd say a polar bear, haha... i hope you are laughing. here are my reasons in no particular order:: i like cold weather, they are large (so i could eat whatever i want), and bears can be nurturing (right?)... and this is the shortest post of all time... silly topic!
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
day 14: describe 5 strengths that you have
oh man, sometimes i am better at pointing out my flaws as opposed to my strengths, but i think i can do this, haha...
1. i care deeply and am thoughtful - most people probably wouldn't see this as a strength, but i think this is a huge part of my character and i know this is one of my spiritual gifts, so to me it is definitely a strength.
2. i am super organized - give me some folders, post it notes, paper, etc and i will go to town... i love organizing actually. ask the family i was a nanny for in college and they will tell you. when the kids went to summer camp or had activities after school, i didn't just sit around and do nothing at their house, i organized the kids dressers/clothes by color and type, i folded their laundry and organized it all. i rearranged their pots and pans in the kitchen and organized it all the time. i seriously loved doing it and the mom (whom i love dearly) loved it equally the same. she used to tell me that i should start my own business, haha... instead she helped me get my job at quintiles (she works there too) and now we work at the same company, forever grateful to her.
3. dependable/loyal - there isn't anything i wouldn't do for my family and friends and once you are my friend, you would have to do something pretty terrible or basically ask me to walk away before i will stop reaching out. i love with my whole heart. i give 110% and want to always be there for my friends. i can't think of any reason not to be. my friends are my rock, so being there for them in return is a no brainer! two of my very best friends, i have had since elementary school.
4. i am opinionated, have a voice - i love that i got this from my mother:) man oh man, when i was younger, i can remember her calling corporate on companies/people, and thinking i was so embarrassed, but now i do the same. i love that she didn't raise me to sit back and not speak up. i love that this is one area in my life where i am not afraid to speak up. i don't let people walk all over me; i let people know what is expected, what i want, and in turn treat others the same (or try my hardest too). sometimes i do get a bit sassy, but i am glad that i have a voice and it definitely gets heard!
5. i can remember your name, typically after one meeting. i also remember birthday, addresses, and phone numbers, this is a very strange strength of mine, but i think it comes in handy a lot. no lie, show me your address once, and typically i have it memorized. phone numbers are a little harder these days as we all use cell phones and unless you have to dial the number, you don't typically look at it. i do have a lot of my favorites (people i call a lot) their numbers memorized though. birthdays for sure, i don't forget those... it is the one day out of the year that you get to make that person feel so special, i think they are a big deal and that person should feel so special and celebrated:)
that is all i have for now!
1. i care deeply and am thoughtful - most people probably wouldn't see this as a strength, but i think this is a huge part of my character and i know this is one of my spiritual gifts, so to me it is definitely a strength.
2. i am super organized - give me some folders, post it notes, paper, etc and i will go to town... i love organizing actually. ask the family i was a nanny for in college and they will tell you. when the kids went to summer camp or had activities after school, i didn't just sit around and do nothing at their house, i organized the kids dressers/clothes by color and type, i folded their laundry and organized it all. i rearranged their pots and pans in the kitchen and organized it all the time. i seriously loved doing it and the mom (whom i love dearly) loved it equally the same. she used to tell me that i should start my own business, haha... instead she helped me get my job at quintiles (she works there too) and now we work at the same company, forever grateful to her.
3. dependable/loyal - there isn't anything i wouldn't do for my family and friends and once you are my friend, you would have to do something pretty terrible or basically ask me to walk away before i will stop reaching out. i love with my whole heart. i give 110% and want to always be there for my friends. i can't think of any reason not to be. my friends are my rock, so being there for them in return is a no brainer! two of my very best friends, i have had since elementary school.
4. i am opinionated, have a voice - i love that i got this from my mother:) man oh man, when i was younger, i can remember her calling corporate on companies/people, and thinking i was so embarrassed, but now i do the same. i love that she didn't raise me to sit back and not speak up. i love that this is one area in my life where i am not afraid to speak up. i don't let people walk all over me; i let people know what is expected, what i want, and in turn treat others the same (or try my hardest too). sometimes i do get a bit sassy, but i am glad that i have a voice and it definitely gets heard!
5. i can remember your name, typically after one meeting. i also remember birthday, addresses, and phone numbers, this is a very strange strength of mine, but i think it comes in handy a lot. no lie, show me your address once, and typically i have it memorized. phone numbers are a little harder these days as we all use cell phones and unless you have to dial the number, you don't typically look at it. i do have a lot of my favorites (people i call a lot) their numbers memorized though. birthdays for sure, i don't forget those... it is the one day out of the year that you get to make that person feel so special, i think they are a big deal and that person should feel so special and celebrated:)
that is all i have for now!
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
day 13: describe 5 weaknesses that you have
sometimes it is easier to be hard on yourself than you realize. i have recently gone through the interview process at my job, so i've had to think about this a little.
1. i am a bit sensitive - my feelings can get hurt pretty easily and cry at almost every movie, but i'd like to think this is not always a weakness:) i wear my heart on my sleeve, but as i have gotten older, i have learned to control this maybe just a little better. i have learned that you have to protect your heart:)
2. i am a planner/not very spontaneous - my friends from home jokingly call me "sarge in charge." there is a group of nine of us girls and if i didn't plan things, we would never get together. i am okay with the fact that i am this way, but there are times, when i wish i was a little more spontaneous. i always want to know the plan, where we are going, when we are going, how we are getting there, etc.
3. i am a neat freak, slightly obsessive compulsive... when i moved into my townhouse, we were putting the cups in the cabinet (organized by color) and my brother made a comment that i needed to get all the same color to help my future husband so he can't get it wrong, i laughed and thought he may be onto something, because all the cups have to match when putting them in the cabinet:) i have tried to get better, but living by myself for the last four years hasn't helped this situation, haha.
4. i am a night owl and totally procrastinate... working from home, i always think, i can do that later and tonight... this is definitely a weakness of mine. i need to be more disciplined in my day to day work life.... end of story.
5. i can be a bit dramatic.. not like i like drama, but i think things are a matter of life and death or a good example... a few weeks ago, i went horseback riding with my parents, and the horse i was riding was C-razy:) she kept venturing off of the trail/path and eating small trees (plants) and i kept having to pull her and guide her back, also she ran me into a tree at one point, through a very steep decline and i tore my shirt, i was cussing and terrified i was going to die and afterwards, i kept telling friends and my parents that i survived, but i nearly died... now, i didn't really die, i had a small whole (about the size of a quarter/nickel) in my shirt, and that is about all... but that isn't the story i like to tell. i will say my dramatic side provides lots of humor.
6. i thought i wouldn't delete anything i already posted, but one of my biggest weaknesses is shopping for clothes, jewelry, and shoes. i need not elaborate, but to say that at times it is simply out of control, but i will say that 80% of the time, i have a coupon, gift certificate, it is on sale, or something of the nature... so i rarely by something full price. on another note, i rarely by electronics and toys of this nature... it is just on clothes, but don't let that fool you, because they can get expensive, it all adds up:) oh and i shop for home stuff a lot too, oops. what do i think this is true confessions?
i am sure there are others, but these are the ones that popped in my head today:)
1. i am a bit sensitive - my feelings can get hurt pretty easily and cry at almost every movie, but i'd like to think this is not always a weakness:) i wear my heart on my sleeve, but as i have gotten older, i have learned to control this maybe just a little better. i have learned that you have to protect your heart:)
2. i am a planner/not very spontaneous - my friends from home jokingly call me "sarge in charge." there is a group of nine of us girls and if i didn't plan things, we would never get together. i am okay with the fact that i am this way, but there are times, when i wish i was a little more spontaneous. i always want to know the plan, where we are going, when we are going, how we are getting there, etc.
3. i am a neat freak, slightly obsessive compulsive... when i moved into my townhouse, we were putting the cups in the cabinet (organized by color) and my brother made a comment that i needed to get all the same color to help my future husband so he can't get it wrong, i laughed and thought he may be onto something, because all the cups have to match when putting them in the cabinet:) i have tried to get better, but living by myself for the last four years hasn't helped this situation, haha.
4. i am a night owl and totally procrastinate... working from home, i always think, i can do that later and tonight... this is definitely a weakness of mine. i need to be more disciplined in my day to day work life.... end of story.
5. i can be a bit dramatic.. not like i like drama, but i think things are a matter of life and death or a good example... a few weeks ago, i went horseback riding with my parents, and the horse i was riding was C-razy:) she kept venturing off of the trail/path and eating small trees (plants) and i kept having to pull her and guide her back, also she ran me into a tree at one point, through a very steep decline and i tore my shirt, i was cussing and terrified i was going to die and afterwards, i kept telling friends and my parents that i survived, but i nearly died... now, i didn't really die, i had a small whole (about the size of a quarter/nickel) in my shirt, and that is about all... but that isn't the story i like to tell. i will say my dramatic side provides lots of humor.
6. i thought i wouldn't delete anything i already posted, but one of my biggest weaknesses is shopping for clothes, jewelry, and shoes. i need not elaborate, but to say that at times it is simply out of control, but i will say that 80% of the time, i have a coupon, gift certificate, it is on sale, or something of the nature... so i rarely by something full price. on another note, i rarely by electronics and toys of this nature... it is just on clothes, but don't let that fool you, because they can get expensive, it all adds up:) oh and i shop for home stuff a lot too, oops. what do i think this is true confessions?
i am sure there are others, but these are the ones that popped in my head today:)
Friday, June 1, 2012
day 12: a typical day in my life
well, i am going to back up a few weeks, because i just started a new job, and this slower pace of training is so different than my fast paced job i am so used to, and i don't want to bore the few of you still reading, so i'll tell you what a typical day used to look like and what one may look like after i get through the six weeks of onboarding/training:)
wake up around 6:30/7ish with barely enough time to get ready, set my alarm with all intentions to get up and exercise and do quiet time, not happening. let's face it, i am not a morning person, never have been, never will be. jump in the shower, and get ready in the amount of time i have left... if i am super rushed, it will be a curly hair day, if not, i take the ever so long process and time of straightening my hair. it is longer than it has been in years, so it takes me at least 45 minutes to dry it and straighten it, but i am thankful to have it, so i will not complain:) usually i do not have time to eat or put on make up at the house, so that is done in the car. i fix my bagel thin, strawberry shake, and coffee and take that on the road... also i put my make up on in the car, i know it is a horrible habit, but i usually have at least a 30 minute commute if not an hour to an hour and a half drive to my sites:) i will pray, sing, talk on the phone, you name it on the commutes, my time in the car is great!
i arrive onsite as close to on time as possible, usually with starbucks in hand, yes another coffee, haha. now i am ready to go! i monitor medical records comparing it to source data from the subjects who have been enrolled into a clinical trial, i return study drug to the depot/drug warehouse, i look at regulatory documents (this is what the government monitors to make sure sites are legit and following guidelines, serious stuff), i always take a lunch break, and then i hop back in the car and drive back. i usually have a gym bag in the car, and head straight to the gym or else i will have no motivation, so i may go to cardio strength or total strength, love these classes. afterwards, i am usually too tired to cook, so i may head to which which (i think they know i am addicted), then head home eat my dinner! at this point it is usually 8:15 or 8:30 pm. i will watch mindless television, work on reports, clean my house a little, do my quiet time (that i didn't do this morning) or just relax until about midnight and then head to bed. i set goals to go to bed earlier, it never happens, i wish! then i get up and do it all over again... i love my life, my friends, my schedule, my job and all that God has blessed me with. i don't like not being busy, so i enjoy my days that are full to the brim!
wake up around 6:30/7ish with barely enough time to get ready, set my alarm with all intentions to get up and exercise and do quiet time, not happening. let's face it, i am not a morning person, never have been, never will be. jump in the shower, and get ready in the amount of time i have left... if i am super rushed, it will be a curly hair day, if not, i take the ever so long process and time of straightening my hair. it is longer than it has been in years, so it takes me at least 45 minutes to dry it and straighten it, but i am thankful to have it, so i will not complain:) usually i do not have time to eat or put on make up at the house, so that is done in the car. i fix my bagel thin, strawberry shake, and coffee and take that on the road... also i put my make up on in the car, i know it is a horrible habit, but i usually have at least a 30 minute commute if not an hour to an hour and a half drive to my sites:) i will pray, sing, talk on the phone, you name it on the commutes, my time in the car is great!
i arrive onsite as close to on time as possible, usually with starbucks in hand, yes another coffee, haha. now i am ready to go! i monitor medical records comparing it to source data from the subjects who have been enrolled into a clinical trial, i return study drug to the depot/drug warehouse, i look at regulatory documents (this is what the government monitors to make sure sites are legit and following guidelines, serious stuff), i always take a lunch break, and then i hop back in the car and drive back. i usually have a gym bag in the car, and head straight to the gym or else i will have no motivation, so i may go to cardio strength or total strength, love these classes. afterwards, i am usually too tired to cook, so i may head to which which (i think they know i am addicted), then head home eat my dinner! at this point it is usually 8:15 or 8:30 pm. i will watch mindless television, work on reports, clean my house a little, do my quiet time (that i didn't do this morning) or just relax until about midnight and then head to bed. i set goals to go to bed earlier, it never happens, i wish! then i get up and do it all over again... i love my life, my friends, my schedule, my job and all that God has blessed me with. i don't like not being busy, so i enjoy my days that are full to the brim!
day 11: describe ten pet peeves I have...
i am so off on the days, but just go with it... describe ten pet peeves that i have, sorry if you do these:)
1. people who snore or make any kind of noise when they sleep for that matter, other than a light breathing sound (i like for people to live)... 99% of the time i need a sound machine to drown out sounds and i should start praying now that my future husband does not snore, because i will never sleep, that sound is like nails on a chalkboard to me
2. people who do not take care of other people's stuff
3. people who drop the "f" word, it really is not ever needed and women who say it, it is not becoming or attractive if you ask me, but ask a guy
4. people who have to always be the center of attention, enough said
5. couples who sit on the same side of the booth, seriously, that is just flat out ridiculous
6. people who smoke where it clearly says, NO SMOKING or they walk two inches outside of the no smoking area and blow smoke right in your face, happens to me all the time at the charlotte airport
7. people talking during a movie in the theater, seriously be quiet
8. people who let their dogs jump on everyone, teach them that is a bad habit
9. when the toliet paper roll is backwards
10. people who don't respond to email/text/phone or that don't rsvp... does it really take that much time?
1. people who snore or make any kind of noise when they sleep for that matter, other than a light breathing sound (i like for people to live)... 99% of the time i need a sound machine to drown out sounds and i should start praying now that my future husband does not snore, because i will never sleep, that sound is like nails on a chalkboard to me
2. people who do not take care of other people's stuff
3. people who drop the "f" word, it really is not ever needed and women who say it, it is not becoming or attractive if you ask me, but ask a guy
4. people who have to always be the center of attention, enough said
5. couples who sit on the same side of the booth, seriously, that is just flat out ridiculous
6. people who smoke where it clearly says, NO SMOKING or they walk two inches outside of the no smoking area and blow smoke right in your face, happens to me all the time at the charlotte airport
7. people talking during a movie in the theater, seriously be quiet
8. people who let their dogs jump on everyone, teach them that is a bad habit
9. when the toliet paper roll is backwards
10. people who don't respond to email/text/phone or that don't rsvp... does it really take that much time?
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