this one could be fun, but here goes:)
1. quit trying to fit in and do what all the popular kids are doing. just be who God created you to be:)
2. quit begging your parents to go to yesterdays... you can have fun other places.
3. don't ditch your best friends and turn on them just because new friends want to hang out.
4. quit being a picky eater:: learn to eat healthier, NOW!!!
5. enjoy high school, it is fun, life is so much easier, and the real world is brutal.
6. enjoy the innocence of being 16, in youth group, in Lincolnton, and don't take it for granted.
7. spend more time with your grandmother, she will be gone one day.
8. be more kind to your parents who provided you with all that they could have, especially when it came to cars ( i gave them Hell about this one).... i see now how hard they worked to give me the very best that they could and i was very unappreciative.
9. enjoy having someone wait on your hand and foot, haha... haven't had that in almost 12 years and not going to lie, i kind of miss moma making us breakfast or having someone bring something when i am sick.
10. last, but probably most important, STAY AWAY FROM JOSH PRICE. he is not worth it and is making you form opinions about your self worth... don't let him shape your opinion of yourself. there are other guys out there, he isn't the only one.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
day 3: describe my relationship with my parents
mi madre ~ well, let's see. i am pretty close to my dear mother. my mother and i have some similar qualities, but for the most part we are pretty different and i love that. i talk to my mother almost every day, if i don't i get a nice text that says, "haven't heard from you since _____ day, you ok?" it is funny, i'd like to say i get annoyed, but truthfully, if she didn't check in, i'd probably be upset with her. a lot of times, i just need to vent/tell someone about my day, she is not a talker, but sure is a great listener and i remind her a lot that she brought me into this world, so she has no choice but to listen to my completely, long-winded, drawn out stories, haha. my mother is extremely loyal, very caring, loves deeply, and would do anything for her family. she is always encouraging me, praying for me, and cries/laughs with me! she didn't plan on having kids, but God had other plans, and for that, i'm very thankful:)
mi padre ~ this is a good one! my dad, is actually my step-dad... who stepped into my life when i was seven years old. at seven, i was less than thrilled about this transition, but at 29, i can't imagine my without him. i have been so blessed that 22 years ago, God decided to choose him as my dad. i have a great relationship with my dad. first of all, being 29 is not married, he is my go to handy man... i know he will be more than thrilled when i get married to be relieved of this duty, but i like the fact that it gives him or sometimes both of my parents a reason to come visit. a lot of times, my dad and i will just call each other up and discuss different things, and i love these convos. it is like we see eye to eye a lot, and maybe my mom and sister see eye to eye a lot... and i am completely okay with that. my dad is the most generous man on the planet, i mean, literally, he would give the shirt off of his back to someone who needed it; i love that about him, and know that my heart to give back definitely came from him:)
i am so blessed, fortunate and thankful to have to wonderful, loving, Christian parents who raised me. i am so glad that i live close enough that i can go visit them when i want and they can make the big trip to the thriving metropolis of Charlotte:)
mi padre ~ this is a good one! my dad, is actually my step-dad... who stepped into my life when i was seven years old. at seven, i was less than thrilled about this transition, but at 29, i can't imagine my without him. i have been so blessed that 22 years ago, God decided to choose him as my dad. i have a great relationship with my dad. first of all, being 29 is not married, he is my go to handy man... i know he will be more than thrilled when i get married to be relieved of this duty, but i like the fact that it gives him or sometimes both of my parents a reason to come visit. a lot of times, my dad and i will just call each other up and discuss different things, and i love these convos. it is like we see eye to eye a lot, and maybe my mom and sister see eye to eye a lot... and i am completely okay with that. my dad is the most generous man on the planet, i mean, literally, he would give the shirt off of his back to someone who needed it; i love that about him, and know that my heart to give back definitely came from him:)
i am so blessed, fortunate and thankful to have to wonderful, loving, Christian parents who raised me. i am so glad that i live close enough that i can go visit them when i want and they can make the big trip to the thriving metropolis of Charlotte:)
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
fears come in all shapes and sizes
so, day 2 of my 30 day assignment is to describe 3 legitimate fears i have and why they became fears, so here goes:
1. if anyone knows me at all, you know this is my number 1 fear in life. i am absolutely terrified that someone is going to break into my house, so much so that i must sleep with all doors closed and with something in front of them. so the item of choice right now, is a step stool that fits perfectly under the door knob and if someone were to try and open it, they wouldn't be able to easily walk into my bedroom at night. in addition, the jewelry amoire is also beside of that, so i have at least provided a bit of a challenge for the person, in my head. now, if there is a fire, this girl is jumping straight out of the window of my second floor bedroom, and i could careless if i have another broken bone to add to the list:) i've thought this through quite thoroughly. i wish i could tell you where this fear came from, but all i can say is that i have had all my life. i grew up in my small hometown on a street that wasn't necessarily the safest, so maybe part of it came from there, but all in all, i think it is just one of those crazy irrational fears that i was born with. my mother thinks i am "silly," but the best part is that my sister is the same way. somehow i am comforted in knowing that i am not the only one like this. i remember kendall and i would always want to sleep in the same room, even though we had separate rooms, because we would be scared, haha. my mother said, we could go to bed in separate rooms, but when she would come get us up in the morning, we would have gotten up in the middle of the night, and got in one or the other's beds. a lot of times, i have to pray that God would protect my house or put an imaginary bubble around me or i will read a passage from the Bible to calm my nerves so i can sleep. also, i have been known to play music to be able to sleep. also, all of my friends know that i have to have my turbo fan going and my sound machine on. bottom line:: i don't want to hear the person, haha.
2. God is definitely working on this one, so it isn't so much a fear anymore, because i trust his plan and as i mentioned yesterday, my life will not be over. i sometimes do fear that i will not get married and have children. my greatest heart's desire is to be a wife and a mom. i know God has called me to be a wife and a mom, but it has not been in His timing yet. i completely trust His plan, but a lot of times i find myself fearful and doubting it, as i get older. the past few months i have come to a place of having such peace about this, because i don't want to be sad, lonely, and bitter about it. i want to live a life full of His great love and share it with others. i don't want people to see my life and think, she was so sad because she isn't/wasn't married. i want people to see that I was doing what God called me to do. after all, we only get one life, so I don't want to waste mine in self pity!
3. i do have a fear of failure. i think early on in my childhood, i knew that i wanted to succeed and make something of myself, and i have worked very hard to get where i am today. i just started a new job, and i am terrified that i am going to fail, but know that if i work hard and give 110% that i will be fine. God has also been working on this area of my life, because no one is going to care what i did as my career at the end of my life. i know that i need to be focusing on the more important things in life, like helping others in need, giving back, etc.
1. if anyone knows me at all, you know this is my number 1 fear in life. i am absolutely terrified that someone is going to break into my house, so much so that i must sleep with all doors closed and with something in front of them. so the item of choice right now, is a step stool that fits perfectly under the door knob and if someone were to try and open it, they wouldn't be able to easily walk into my bedroom at night. in addition, the jewelry amoire is also beside of that, so i have at least provided a bit of a challenge for the person, in my head. now, if there is a fire, this girl is jumping straight out of the window of my second floor bedroom, and i could careless if i have another broken bone to add to the list:) i've thought this through quite thoroughly. i wish i could tell you where this fear came from, but all i can say is that i have had all my life. i grew up in my small hometown on a street that wasn't necessarily the safest, so maybe part of it came from there, but all in all, i think it is just one of those crazy irrational fears that i was born with. my mother thinks i am "silly," but the best part is that my sister is the same way. somehow i am comforted in knowing that i am not the only one like this. i remember kendall and i would always want to sleep in the same room, even though we had separate rooms, because we would be scared, haha. my mother said, we could go to bed in separate rooms, but when she would come get us up in the morning, we would have gotten up in the middle of the night, and got in one or the other's beds. a lot of times, i have to pray that God would protect my house or put an imaginary bubble around me or i will read a passage from the Bible to calm my nerves so i can sleep. also, i have been known to play music to be able to sleep. also, all of my friends know that i have to have my turbo fan going and my sound machine on. bottom line:: i don't want to hear the person, haha.
2. God is definitely working on this one, so it isn't so much a fear anymore, because i trust his plan and as i mentioned yesterday, my life will not be over. i sometimes do fear that i will not get married and have children. my greatest heart's desire is to be a wife and a mom. i know God has called me to be a wife and a mom, but it has not been in His timing yet. i completely trust His plan, but a lot of times i find myself fearful and doubting it, as i get older. the past few months i have come to a place of having such peace about this, because i don't want to be sad, lonely, and bitter about it. i want to live a life full of His great love and share it with others. i don't want people to see my life and think, she was so sad because she isn't/wasn't married. i want people to see that I was doing what God called me to do. after all, we only get one life, so I don't want to waste mine in self pity!
3. i do have a fear of failure. i think early on in my childhood, i knew that i wanted to succeed and make something of myself, and i have worked very hard to get where i am today. i just started a new job, and i am terrified that i am going to fail, but know that if i work hard and give 110% that i will be fine. God has also been working on this area of my life, because no one is going to care what i did as my career at the end of my life. i know that i need to be focusing on the more important things in life, like helping others in need, giving back, etc.
Monday, May 7, 2012
20 random facts about kelsey rae
So, I saw this on a friend's blog and thought this would be a good way to keep me blogging for the next 30 days:: 30 posts in 30 days (the topics are already chosen for me). I'll also blog about other things along the way, as I started my new job today and my work life will not be as chaotic, not as much traveling for this girl!
So, the first day's assignment is 20 random facts about me, i don't think this should be hard, as I am pretty random and have quirks about me, so here's goes!
1. i am absolutely terrified that someone is going to break in my house, so i actually sleep better in hotels (something about feeling more secure)
2. i absolutely love avacados and think that i could try to put it on everything (hamburgers are the best)
3. i cannot go to sleep with dirty dishes in the sink
4. i love to do things for other people (helping people/serving)... i work with the toddlers at my church every sunday, and it brings so much joy to my heart... this is definitely one of my spiritual gifts (encouraging/helping others)
5. i am a neat freak (somewhat obsessive compulsive about cleanliness), but i rarely make my bed
6. country music always makes me smile
7. i am still single at 29, and my world is not sad and depressing... God has blessed me with a great job and amazing friends and family... i am 100% trusting in God's plan and know that His timing is perfect. i cannot wait to be a wife and mom, but my life is not on hold until then, i want to live life to the fullest and enjoy this precious life God has given me:)
8. i absolutely love college football and basketball.... i love watching college gameday on saturdays!
9. i do not have an athletic bone in my body, never played a sport growing up, but i do work out (classes at the gym keep me motivated)
10. i may have every birthday card and christmas card i have ever received (a little sentimental)
11. i do not like to read, but there are a few books i really have loved (kisses from katie, redeeming love, heaven is for real)
12. two of my best friends i have had since elementary school (don't know what i would do without them)
13. i am going sky-diving next week with my mother
14. i do not wear heels (i have a morton's neuroma) and it is so very painful
15. purple is my favorite color
16. the month of december is by far, my favorite month of the whole year
17. i love cold weather and prefer it over the heat (i get excited like a small child, when it snows)
18. i used to drink regular cokes daily (way too many of them) and now i have replaced that with coffee... starbucks and this girl are way too close
19. i love organizing and decorating, real simple is definitely my favorite magazine
20. even though i have traveled quite a bit for my job in the last six years, i haven't ever been to europe and i really want to
So, the first day's assignment is 20 random facts about me, i don't think this should be hard, as I am pretty random and have quirks about me, so here's goes!
1. i am absolutely terrified that someone is going to break in my house, so i actually sleep better in hotels (something about feeling more secure)
2. i absolutely love avacados and think that i could try to put it on everything (hamburgers are the best)
3. i cannot go to sleep with dirty dishes in the sink
4. i love to do things for other people (helping people/serving)... i work with the toddlers at my church every sunday, and it brings so much joy to my heart... this is definitely one of my spiritual gifts (encouraging/helping others)
5. i am a neat freak (somewhat obsessive compulsive about cleanliness), but i rarely make my bed
6. country music always makes me smile
7. i am still single at 29, and my world is not sad and depressing... God has blessed me with a great job and amazing friends and family... i am 100% trusting in God's plan and know that His timing is perfect. i cannot wait to be a wife and mom, but my life is not on hold until then, i want to live life to the fullest and enjoy this precious life God has given me:)
8. i absolutely love college football and basketball.... i love watching college gameday on saturdays!
9. i do not have an athletic bone in my body, never played a sport growing up, but i do work out (classes at the gym keep me motivated)
10. i may have every birthday card and christmas card i have ever received (a little sentimental)
11. i do not like to read, but there are a few books i really have loved (kisses from katie, redeeming love, heaven is for real)
12. two of my best friends i have had since elementary school (don't know what i would do without them)
13. i am going sky-diving next week with my mother
14. i do not wear heels (i have a morton's neuroma) and it is so very painful
15. purple is my favorite color
16. the month of december is by far, my favorite month of the whole year
17. i love cold weather and prefer it over the heat (i get excited like a small child, when it snows)
18. i used to drink regular cokes daily (way too many of them) and now i have replaced that with coffee... starbucks and this girl are way too close
19. i love organizing and decorating, real simple is definitely my favorite magazine
20. even though i have traveled quite a bit for my job in the last six years, i haven't ever been to europe and i really want to
Friday, April 13, 2012
God's plan:: New Job
so, hardly anyone understands what i do in my job, it is kind of funny to hear my family and friends try to explain it, but for my really close friends, i think they have picked up on the general idea. basically, i am a monitor for clinical drug trials, so i travel to doctor's offices and hospitals and monitor the data of the patients/subjects participating in the clinical trials. i arrive onsite and spend 70% of my time looking at medical records and source. i read all about symptoms/side effects (if you will) that the subject may be having while taking an investigational drug (not yet approved by the fda - food and drug administration). the other portion of time is spent returning the drug to the warehouse or depot and also reviewing regulatory documents, lots of those involved in clinical trials. another part of my job is developing relationships with the sites, as you want to have a good working/professional relationship with them so they will do things you are asking them to do, you are like a team. basically i am going to the site and correcting their work, so it is imperative that i build strong relationships with them! you want them to correct the findings and to like you to a certain extent. when i first began traveling, i traveled about 80% of the time. i would leave on sunday, come back on thursday. it was tough. i enjoyed it though, as i got to see a lot of places i hadn't ever been to before. the last two years, i have been so blessed to be more local. why am i writing all of this, well, i am getting there:) my mom tells me it takes too long to get to the point, hehe.
i've been due for a promotion at work for over a year now. my company went through some restructuring and reclassication, and basically the position i should have been promoted to was depleted. talk about perfect timing. i have been extremely patient and just waited, and honestly hoped that they would go back to the old system, but that has not happened. i have been searching, praying, and looking for an opportunity outside of clinical to be promoted, but it was important that it be a position i would actually enjoy. a position opened up in february, as the site relationship manager, and i immediately knew this job would be perfect fo rme. i applied, and thought i lacked the exact qualifications they are looking for, but knew that whatever was in God's will would happen. i actually got a phone screening, and it went really well. the guy i intereviewed with, immediately said he was impressed and offered me a face to face, woohoo. onto step 2, i went. i had to create a powerpoint, talk about stress, but i did it and got nothing but compliments on my work. seriously, my face to face could not have gone any better. i left the interview feeling very confident, and i know that God calmed my nerves and it definitely helped that the guy interviewing me was laid back. i made it to the 3rd step, and that was another phone interview, and that lady flat out said, you should get the job. about two or three days later, i received a call telling me that unfortunately it had come down to me and one other person, an external candidate and i was not going to be offered the job. i was DEVASTATED. he said that i did everything right. he had absolutely no constructive criticism, as i said all the right things, i did a great job in my interview, i had everything they were looknig for, but the one thing i did lack was management experience. at the very end of this very difficult call, he said, i am hopeful; however, that we will have another SSRM position at the beginning of 2nd quarter, that i will definitely keep you in mind for. i wanted to be hopeful, but a large part of me didn't put much hope in that.
you see, after i got this very disappointing phone call, i spent that entire weekend praying and talking to God. i was so upset. i realized that my job had become a little bit of an idol in my life. i looked to my job for some kind of fulfilment, and it was like my job and success in it was something that i could actually control. i have always been such a hardworker, so i think someone stepping on my confidence at work, just rocked my world. i just didn't understand why God would have me get so close and then not get it. that following monday, when i went back to work, i had to snap out of it and realize how blessed and thankful i am for my job.
would you believe (just God being amazing, as always) the monday after first quarter, i got an email from the associate director in atlanta telling me that a new SSRM position was going to be posted that afternoon and that she has been forwarded my resume from the guy i interviewed with in february!!! i interviewed three fridays ago, and last friday, i was offered the job. now, let me tell you how GOOD God is. this job is perfect, as it is closer to my house. I will no longer have to fly (at all), I will not have to stay in a hotel (again), I will have all site visits in Charlotte and South Carolina, not Raleigh (like the first position)... He knew what he was doing all along.
I am so excited and so thankful that my God had a plan all along. I am so thankful for all the people in my life who helped me get to where I am today.
my friend casey sent me this verse when i didn't get the job, and i wrote it on a card and it is still a great reminder daily, but the past few days, it has been such a sweet reminder of God's love... "but the plans of the Lord stand firm forever, the purposes of His heart through all generations." Psalm 33:11
my friend holly sent me another encouraging verse, and it too has been sitting at the bottom of my mirror:: "but as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded." 2 Chronicles 15:7
I start in my new role on May 7th!
i've been due for a promotion at work for over a year now. my company went through some restructuring and reclassication, and basically the position i should have been promoted to was depleted. talk about perfect timing. i have been extremely patient and just waited, and honestly hoped that they would go back to the old system, but that has not happened. i have been searching, praying, and looking for an opportunity outside of clinical to be promoted, but it was important that it be a position i would actually enjoy. a position opened up in february, as the site relationship manager, and i immediately knew this job would be perfect fo rme. i applied, and thought i lacked the exact qualifications they are looking for, but knew that whatever was in God's will would happen. i actually got a phone screening, and it went really well. the guy i intereviewed with, immediately said he was impressed and offered me a face to face, woohoo. onto step 2, i went. i had to create a powerpoint, talk about stress, but i did it and got nothing but compliments on my work. seriously, my face to face could not have gone any better. i left the interview feeling very confident, and i know that God calmed my nerves and it definitely helped that the guy interviewing me was laid back. i made it to the 3rd step, and that was another phone interview, and that lady flat out said, you should get the job. about two or three days later, i received a call telling me that unfortunately it had come down to me and one other person, an external candidate and i was not going to be offered the job. i was DEVASTATED. he said that i did everything right. he had absolutely no constructive criticism, as i said all the right things, i did a great job in my interview, i had everything they were looknig for, but the one thing i did lack was management experience. at the very end of this very difficult call, he said, i am hopeful; however, that we will have another SSRM position at the beginning of 2nd quarter, that i will definitely keep you in mind for. i wanted to be hopeful, but a large part of me didn't put much hope in that.
you see, after i got this very disappointing phone call, i spent that entire weekend praying and talking to God. i was so upset. i realized that my job had become a little bit of an idol in my life. i looked to my job for some kind of fulfilment, and it was like my job and success in it was something that i could actually control. i have always been such a hardworker, so i think someone stepping on my confidence at work, just rocked my world. i just didn't understand why God would have me get so close and then not get it. that following monday, when i went back to work, i had to snap out of it and realize how blessed and thankful i am for my job.
would you believe (just God being amazing, as always) the monday after first quarter, i got an email from the associate director in atlanta telling me that a new SSRM position was going to be posted that afternoon and that she has been forwarded my resume from the guy i interviewed with in february!!! i interviewed three fridays ago, and last friday, i was offered the job. now, let me tell you how GOOD God is. this job is perfect, as it is closer to my house. I will no longer have to fly (at all), I will not have to stay in a hotel (again), I will have all site visits in Charlotte and South Carolina, not Raleigh (like the first position)... He knew what he was doing all along.
I am so excited and so thankful that my God had a plan all along. I am so thankful for all the people in my life who helped me get to where I am today.
my friend casey sent me this verse when i didn't get the job, and i wrote it on a card and it is still a great reminder daily, but the past few days, it has been such a sweet reminder of God's love... "but the plans of the Lord stand firm forever, the purposes of His heart through all generations." Psalm 33:11
my friend holly sent me another encouraging verse, and it too has been sitting at the bottom of my mirror:: "but as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded." 2 Chronicles 15:7
I start in my new role on May 7th!
Saturday, April 7, 2012
HAITI 2.0:: I am going BACK
So, I'll write more later, but I wanted to quickly share that I am going back to Haiti. It is so funny how God works sometimes. After my trip, it took me a while to process everything, and I have repeatedly said it was the most rewarding thing, yet the most challenging thing I have ever done in my entire life. I thought that my church may organize a trip, and was praying about the opportunity to present itself, but didn't hear anything about that coming up. I knew that there was continued need with Blessback at Cambry, and that the Roper's were organizing a trip in July. Melissa sent me an email one Friday and said, we have two spots left on the medical team, for you and Kristen, please say you'll come. It was as if God completely sent that email, as I had been praying that an opportunity would present itself again. I quickly emailed Melissa back and said I am pretty sure I am in, but let me continue to pray for the next few days. I knew that it was God telling me to go back, so I am paid, signed up, and committed to go 21Jul2012-28Jul2012:) I am so very excited, and cannot wait to go back with a heart that is ready to love on the children, with a head that is more knowledgeable, and just generally more prepared. I know God is doing great things in Haiti, and I am so blessed to be a part of it. Please join me in praying my trip and the preparation for it.
continued thankfulness
more posts to come soon, as i have been real absent from blogging for the very few people that read my blog. wanted to post my continued list of thankfulness, as this is completely helping me have a better perspective in my life. as if i didn't already know this, but this week all I can really say is.... GOD IS SO GOOD:)
* the o'connell's came to visit last night and we had a slumber party at my house
* ellie slept with me, so it was fun to sleep with a six year old for a night:)
* i got a phone call on Friday that was a huge answer to prayers
* breakfast with bay and scott saturday morning at flying biscuit
* tuesday night's group at nancy's house
* we found enough volunteers for the toddler room for Easter Sunday
* my walk to my site in boston
* a clean house
* a peace that can only come from my Heavenly Father
* a day at the mall with kase and cheryl
* lunch with my mother on friday
* that melissa roper is in haiti and can tell jazmine hello for me
* manicure/pedicure (needed that pampering and relaxation) with my best friend
* extra time at the airport to get my reports done
* a nice cab driver in boston to get me to my hotel safely at 2:30 am
* the beautiful sunshine/day we had today, saturday
* No Other Gods, bible study - It is AWESOME
* i finished kisses from katie, the most amazing book i have ever read (highly recommend it)
* that i get to celebrate that HE IS RISEN tomorrow and spend the day with my awesome family
just a few from this week. just looking back at what a blessed week i have had reminds to be on my knees thanking Him daily.
* the o'connell's came to visit last night and we had a slumber party at my house
* ellie slept with me, so it was fun to sleep with a six year old for a night:)
* i got a phone call on Friday that was a huge answer to prayers
* breakfast with bay and scott saturday morning at flying biscuit
* tuesday night's group at nancy's house
* we found enough volunteers for the toddler room for Easter Sunday
* my walk to my site in boston
* a clean house
* a peace that can only come from my Heavenly Father
* a day at the mall with kase and cheryl
* lunch with my mother on friday
* that melissa roper is in haiti and can tell jazmine hello for me
* manicure/pedicure (needed that pampering and relaxation) with my best friend
* extra time at the airport to get my reports done
* a nice cab driver in boston to get me to my hotel safely at 2:30 am
* the beautiful sunshine/day we had today, saturday
* No Other Gods, bible study - It is AWESOME
* i finished kisses from katie, the most amazing book i have ever read (highly recommend it)
* that i get to celebrate that HE IS RISEN tomorrow and spend the day with my awesome family
just a few from this week. just looking back at what a blessed week i have had reminds to be on my knees thanking Him daily.
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